Mark's Random Thoughts

Life is weird… Mine is likely even weirder than yours (and I figure yours might well be weird if you are actually taking the time to read this).

Anyway, a quick update on what transpires at the moment and the considerations for the near future:

Passion:
The one I think of most seems to have lost interest (perhaps because she now thinks I am a liar as I bought her a present that has been either lost or seriously delayed in transit). I think that walking away is somewhere on the agenda though really don’t want to lose her. I am fully aware that I think too much about every interaction I have with her. I read so much (well, the pessimist side of me reads so little) into her words that I end up reading between her words and then I even start trying to analyse the kerning between the typed letters hehe
A girl from my past got in contact a couple of weeks ago after perhaps a year of silence. It was nice to hear from her yet I find I don’t have any desire to reply even though she is ill and I should say something. Yeah, I guess the ‘one I think of most’ is part responsible there – is loyalty stupidity? I guess so when the loyalty is likely misplaced.

Writing:
Still playing around with chapter five and progress is mind numbingly slow. Currently somewhere with negative inspiration. Really should move on again. Also, I recognize the muse in the ‘one I think of most’ and am rather worried about where that situation is heading.
Have also started a dissertation/thesis on the English interpretation of… well, pretty much of everything (rather condensed obviously – a concise guide (though as it hedges on absolution from one venial* act I figure people should not take it as a guide)). Perhaps spending a little more time on this might release the block that is holding up the novel.

Travels:
As mentioned, I am currently somewhere that is not providing any inspiration. This should be rectified as soon as possible methinks.
I have some actual flights and apartments booked for a trip over to Eastern Europe in late November. Still not perfectly sure about going though, perhaps a different direction would be better. Several places appeal… only one person does though

* – Venial or mortal mostly dependent upon who you read.